Hate how I Like you

The problem is I could lay here doing absolutely nothing with you
until the sun disappears into the clouds and it wouldn’t bother me one bit.
Happily complacent.

A realization has come about that I might be infatuated once again.
You do this dreadful thing to me... get in my head and my thoughts are no longer my own.

My mind wanders to you everytime and get lost in a day-dream.

More than anything I wanted to hate you, loathe you, take advantage of you. Cold hearted looks good on me.
Emotions are weak.

I despise the way you make me feel as though now it is over. I have lost the battle and the worst part of all is this bliss has taken hold.




"Graze on my lips; and if those hills be dry, stray lower, where the pleasant fountains lie." -William Shakespeare

Complimenting this Life

You flatter me 'til my cheeks show the joy of your words
Touch as soft as the chest I lay my head on

Kindness that has been shown was never allowed to get in touch with me.
So long I as don't learn by heart

Keeping in mind that getting enough can be an overload of my own happiness
It doesn't feel so wrong

And the comfort of your body lies with me through the night
without any presence what-so-ever

Carrying on in this moment and letting past reoccurrences slip into that same black hole we somehow ended up in ourselves

This is not a repeat
This is not a repeat

For once, and once is all I need, to prove that this loneliness wont murder me

No expectations are required

So I bask in the rays of your illumination not caring where this will take off

No Introduction Neccessary

There you go proving everything I knew to be true

Playing me with your smile and lying through your eyes


Copycat, copycat I saw this one before
Show me something fresh and she is slightly worn


So sad you picked a veteran to tell your war stories to


Im not so easily fooled, bad news for you...


It has never been so easy to spot a repeat


Now your stuck in the hole you dug yourself

And no ones left that cares, to see your defeat.

Worst Enemy

Wish I were with you in the rain where no tears could fall
And if one fell from my forlorn eyes no one could tell at all
A disguise for my unending battle with my personal emotions

And though I know I'm holding onto something that used to be there
And hoping it will come back but knowing it wont...

I still miss those days of our peaceful place when not a thing mattered
Not caring and paying no mind
If we were in love, hurt or on edge, and time was stuck inside our love

Feeling affection so great, felt like a dream
Will it be the same once more?

The rain begins a torrential deluge and my heart is here once more
Wishing for what I believe I want
My own worst enemy

Soul

Soul is black and cold
An empty hollow of loneliness and contempt

I like you I like you not

Don't ask me, I may never have the answer you want
For that matter no answer at all

What is wrong with my head.... my heart

Wandering lonely as a storm cloud, with heavy heart
Trying to find my soul a home


I like you I like you not

Distance of Time

Distant answers in the crowd, after thoughts and words that wished were said.
could have...
should have... but never did.
Love floats and the breeze carries my thoughts through this thickness, to you. 1st love, long love; tough.
Emotions stirred with the quickness of distance. Time is so valuable and wasting it would kill me. Getting swallowed by this on going current.
I'm such a fool, believing these words and stopping my own. Spreading these feelings like a disease, and my heart throbbing.
Cries are quickly answered by you...
Alone...on this street and my emptiness is hitting me hard. How long before we realize..... before we both know the difference.
To long, to short; this distance.
Time might cure our young confusion. Mourning is useless in this case, where you and i and us....
This is what we need. Yes, I know this is what I wanted but since when did I know what was best?
STOP!
Only making it harder. Spur of the moment and caught up in the emotions. Wasting thoughts. I already know what i feel why worry anymore?
I need you and the road that seperates us meets in the middle, going both ways.
Age and time will grow and my arms will be open again, as always.
Senseless actions now have meaning and you know what I mean.